Fighting Entropy

Going to try to use this blog to (also) take notes about motivation, emotional state, weather, etc., to see how all together it relates to meeting (exceeding?) my very reasonable health and well-being goals.

Last fall, I ran a half marathon for the first time. It felt great. I felt great. I felt like I was on the cusp of being able to do anything I set my mind to; I finally felt "in shape."  I also felt like I was finally comfortable in my own skin, despite still wanting to lose another 10 lbs.  At that point, I was 149-150 lbs.  I remember thinking, this is the weight/size that back when I wish I could just lose weight overnight, and then have to earn keeping it off, I wished I could be.  So I achieved (earned!) it, and then what?  Evidently I got lazy. Winter.  Lost motivation. It took a while for the weight to creep back on, but it did. A bit over half of it came back.  I do feel as though my composition has changed some, though (for the better/more healthy), and I don't exactly LOOK like I've gained 10 lbs back.  But, I could be full of shit, too.

A couple weeks ago, I signed up for a "Fundamentals" class at one of the local crossfit gyms that a friend goes to. I like the concept of crossfit, but - and I think this comes from being a free-weight junkie back in my teens/early 20s - I don't like the lack of targeted form training. Too much risk of injury. The gym itself is AWESOME. The people are so great, and the atmosphere is wonderful.  There's also the financial thing - it's completely unaffordable, even though my husband would support me if I wanted to remain a member. I just can't spend that much money on myself, when I could spend $100 on Amazon and get some of the equipment to do some of the exercises regularly at home, AND when what I love doing most is outside, and essentially free (other than running shoes and a bicycle - but those aren't monthly payments).  If it were the only way for me to get in shape or whatever, then I'd be OK spending that money. But it's not. And there's a lot of other, way cheaper, stuff that I enjoy more.